Because I am socially stunted and have chosen to live my college life as a recluse rather than a fun, outgoing party animal, I tend to spend way too much time watching movies and television. This pleases me very much. So for funzies I might occasionally share via the Internet my thoughts on the latest movie or TV show that I've become enamored of.
Interesting observations. But far from underachieving, it looks like you are getting it. Be yourself and go where your gut tells you to go. You seem to get that you have to follow enough rules to stay off academic probation. Even playing by that rule, you can still end up making a good living, with or without Urdu.